Ask me how I'm doing and I don't even know what to say... I am overwhelmed. It feels like we have lots to do, and looks like it too, but in reality we are very close. I am hoping to leave today. Rob doesn't think we will be out until Monday... I don't appreciate hearing that because I am just ready to leave.
We got a lot done yesterday. Little errands that needed to be done. Today I need to focus (which is hard for me) and get our clothes organized, kitchen stuff, foods to take, and clean. And then the fun part of trying to fit all we are taking into our Prius. Ugh. Fortunately Rob is an amazing packer!
God woke me up again today. I read from the Thoughts from the Mount of Blessing the chapter on The True Motive of Service. Ask anyone who knows me and they will tell you I am not the best at retelling things I have read or heard, I just cannot get it from my mind out of my mouth. But I will try. The chapter was talking about not doing good deeds for the world to see but to do it quietly out of true kindness and selfless love.
To be honest, as I was reading I was thinking, "God this is good, and I do need to hear this because I am selfish. I shy away from the homeless and am really a little scared of them. But why are you telling me this now? I need support for our move! I need to know you are encouraging me."
It went on to talk about giving to the needy. When you do care for those who need caring, "The grace of Christ in the soul is developing traits of character that are the opposite of selfishness, -traits that will refine, ennoble and enrich the life." Yes, God, I know need less selfishness. I am selfish and I do want to change that.
I finished reading and had my prayer and went on to other things not really knowing why God had me read that.
It wasn't until I started typing this blog that it hit me. I have lots of things that we have been wanting to sell to get some extra money for our travels. These things could easily be given to people who need it or a shelter that can give it to someone. Why do I care about a few extra dollars when someone else doesn't even have that to pay for something they may need? What a lesson! But honestly, it is still hard to do, because we do need every little bit of money. But am I trusting God to take care of my needs if I am constantly looking for ways to get money?
I know that God has all the power to supply my needs if I let Him. I am not saying that I am going to be lazy and not do what I can. But I do believe that He was telling me to forget about trying to sell the small things. I can see Him shaking His head at me and saying, " Mindy, why stress over all these little things? There are people who can use these things and need them. Give it away. It will ease your stress, help someone else and I will bless you. You are doing what I have asked and I WILL take care of you. Trust Me."
Okay God. I give it to You. Thank You.
I know I can face the day now. And even if we don't leave today, it will still be okay. :)
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